Drug

Wow. Wow wowowowowowowowow.

YESTERDAY I BINGED/PURGED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OVER 1.5 WEEKS. TODAY I HAD A GOOD DAY BUT WHEN I GOT HOME I GOT BAD THOUGHTS, CLOSE TO BINGING. I DIDNT KNOW WHAT WAS WRONG OR WHAT WAS MAKING ME STICK WHEN BEFORE IT WASNT ANYTHING.

Both days I didn't have my normal workout on days I needed to work out. One was rushed in a different guy and one was kayaking. My home gym and my workout is my drug. when i dont get my fill when i need my fill, im hungry to other things. and when i dont have social things to do.....